I love Christmas, not only is it my birthday, but now it is little Addy's birthday as well (or 2 days after Christmas anyways). There is something different stirring inside me this Christmas though. I love giving, getting, and buying presents. I love watching Ella's face when she gets the best thing in the world-  but it all seems different this year. Something inside of me would rather see the face of someone less fortunate opening something they never thought they'd have. How can I want more when I already have so much. God is prompting in me a spirit to give. I want to give outside the walls of my family. I want my children to want to give. I want to make a difference in the lives of those in this world around us. But where do you even start? I talked to Dave this morning and I guess God has been prompting his heart as well because he quickly agreed. We need to give a special gift to our Church this Christmas. No doubt everyone, every organization is struggling financially during this time but the Vineyard needs our help and they need our help to do the right things. So many lives are being changed at that place. I am amazed everyday to hear the stories I hear. I am jealous that Dave gets to work at such an amazing place and I am so blessed to even get to go. I know our money is not much but if God prompted the hearts of the 6,000 people that attend the Vineyard the way he did ours a little bit adds up to a lot. I guess small things done with love really will change the world. 

Job 31:23-28, 

4 "If I have put my trust in gold or said to pure gold, 'You are my security,' if I have rejoiced over my great wealth, the fortune my hands had gained, if I have regarded the sun in its radiance or the moon moving in splendor, so that my heart was secretly enticed and my hand offered them a kiss of homage then these also would be sins to be judged,  for I would have been unfaithful to God on high."

God - forgive me for putting my trust and my value in the things this world has to offer me. Help me to put my trust in you, help me to give the way you have given to me. Give me your eyes so I can see and give me your heart so I can give. Instead of the gift of want, want, want help me to pass on the gift of give, give, give to my girls. 

I can't believe it has almost been a year since Addy joined our family. She is such a great part it is hard to remember what it was like without her. She brings so much joy to our home. What a difference a year makes. So many things have changed for me this year. I have gone from full time ministry at my home church of 27 years - where I was constantly surrounded by youth, teaching, preaching, organizing, and outreaching to supporting my husband a his new place in ministry at the Vineyard, staying home raising my girls, and desperately trying to find my place in this new role. I love being a mom, I love staying home with my girls, and I love having a husband that is so passionate about ministry. I am so thankful that life has not been about me this year. I am guilty of thinking God has big plans for my life and forgetting to remember about the plans he has for the lives around me. I have learned more and been challenged more as an individual than ever before. Funny how when you take the focus off yourself and you begin to serve others and support others God is quick to make sure you are taken care of as well. I don't know what God has in store for me this next year but I am excited to say I will serve and support my family with the anticipation of big things.

Thank you God for blessing my life. May I honor you with the way I cherish my blessings. My cup overflows. To you be all the glory forever and ever